It's been a while since I last posted anything. I put distance between me and the cult so life as I know it has settled down and become peaceful. I've been able to focus on my business and go on some very interesting adventures. Some of which I will explain later. Right now it's 5 AM and I need to crash. The insomnia has finally worn off. Yeah me. LOL
Reading through past entries I finally realize that Dianne has won. She has successfully alienated me from her entire family. Aunts, uncles, cousins, past friendships are dead weight now. They all believe I am some sort of evil selfish monster. I truly believe that my cousins were only interested in my friendship for one of two reasons. The ones that socialize with Jennifer and Dianne are being used by them to keep tabs on me. If the cousins talk about what they know about me you can be sure Jennifer and Dianne will be listening. They don't want me in their life and they all assume my life revolves around them, but they never completely let go. I assume this is their covert way of trying to manipulate e into submission so they can control me and use me like they have in the past.
I am of the mind set now that if I ever expect to leave the past behind for good and never look back, I have to drop the dead weight and accept that they don't want me in their lives. They hate me and they always have. This to me is nothing more than open doors and new adventures with no one to take it away or stop me. If I want to attain this new life it's important to do everything in my power to forget them and focus on the present so I can plan for the future free of narcissists and evil people.
I haven't lost anything by cleaning the haters and toxic relationships out of my closet. All I've done is make room for new friends and a happier life with sane people and genuine friendships.
2020 is my year to manifest my destiny and live my best life. No more haters and no more abuse.
Thank you to everyone who kicked me to the curb. You were right. I don't belong in your world anymore than you belong in mine.
